It just all adds up. All the emotions from life, they add up and send me into a void. A place where there is so much to feel that the only viable option is to feel nothing. It's not bad things, or good things, so much as just things. Almost everything in my life is simultaneously bad and good. I'm in love! My parents can't know about her! I'm going to be an Aunt! Unless of course my sister doesn't want the crazy gay aunt around! I'm finally well again! But I am so out of shape that I can barely do anything and am at an increased risk for injury!
I worry a lot. I just wish I could know that I would be accepted and loved. And that I could make my parents proud.
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