yesterday

Yesterday was a beautiful day. I had been asked to visit bible camp to visit one of my friends who is on the more liberal end of the thinking perspective, although some might call her a heathen. Having reconnected with her, having the support, and the awareness that it's not all against 1, has been incredibly helpful, strengthening and liberating. She is someone I have always respected, and to know that she respects me and doesn't automatically condemn me to hell is pretty awesome.
While I was there, I was faced with the decision of whether or not to come out to another one of my friends from highschool/camp/youth rallies. He looked at me and asked me if I had a significant other, and I immediately froze. Then I babbled on about something and not knowing how he might react, and he looked at me and said simply that he would react with no judgment. How often do you, especially in christian circles ironically, hear that and believe it? So I told him. And he confirmed his stance as pro-gay rights/marriage, and told me how he was discussing in small circles, the need for a change in theological beliefs to accept monogomous, committed homosexual relationships as acceptable.
wow, more than I was expecting, or even could have expected.
So I was able to talk to both of them for a while. Mostly the initial friend, about how she came to her thoughts about it. I feel like most people, especially again within the confines of a condemning religion, will just accept that it's wrong and never think about it again unless they have to. She explained to me how and why she came to that, and we discussed just openly of how I want spirituality and religion in my life, but I feel rejected by it. But I feel like it is maybe opening to me again.
That being said, I don't know that the religion I grew up with, even if that group becomes accepting of homosexuality, is what I believe in. There are many factors of course. But I feel comfortable and happy and most importantly moving (as opposed to stagnant).